Ah, the joys of trying to pay attention to tv or anything entertainment-related while dealing with infertility. I don't care at ALL about those Kardashian sisters, but I was at 7-11 today with my best guy friend, and I caught a glimpse of a magazine cover with whichever one's preggo again on it. So, yeah, I was wiping away tears while J and I were walking to breakfast. He was telling me about a couple of friends of his who had adopted babies from Vietnam and China. DH and I had talked about adoption before, as DH was wanting to find a way to make things better for me and us sooner rather than later. One thing we didn't talk about, though, was whether we'd want a domestic or foreign adoption if it comes to that. J was telling me it's too early to think about that. Thoughts from the great beyond of blog-land?
I was watching the season premiere of One Tree Hill tonight, and it was interesting in relation to this because of how Brooke is trying to be happy for Haley as she announces her second pregnancy, as well as how Julian tries to help Brooke though this stressor. DH was watching the show with me, and he was sweet about putting his arm around me or holding my hand as the baby issue kept coming up. On the show, Julian was trying to distract Brooke with sex, saying, "Let's keep trying to have a baby." I don't know how that would make me feel if I was in Brooke's shoes of having been told that there was no hope for her to conceive, but I give Julian's character writers credit for having him be sensitive to her needs and emotions related to Haley's pregnancy. One thing I appreciate about DH is him recognizing when the infertility issue is bothering me more and him noticing situations that are likely to stress me out and putting his hand on my arm or something like that. He and I both have physical touch as one of our primary love languages, and so him just making a move to touch me helps me to feel comforted and loved even if it doesn't do anything to fix the problem.
Speaking of fixing the problem, we tried something new on Thursday. I'm not going to go into exactly what on here, because I still haven't decided what level of TMI to put in this blog. If people want to know, comment and I'll tell you privately. Next month at this time we won't be going out of town for the weekend, which will make it easier to try that something new at exactly the right time. This month we had to try it a couple of days ahead of time and hope, since we were both doing things in different places this weekend.
And so it goes. I have an appointment to meet with a counselor tomorrow to talk about my feelings about all this.