Sunday, December 04, 2011

Waiting for Life to Begin

As I was getting ready to post an update about what's been going on recently, this song from Once on this Island popped into my head.  Technically the song is called "Waiting for Life," but every time the phrase appears in the lyrics it's with the whole phrase that I used as the post title.  Now, I don't know if anyone except possibly Katie is enough of a theater geek to know the show and the song, but I highly recommend checking the whole soundtrack out.

 Especially with how close we were to our first IVF cycle before, and now looking forward to hopefully being able to try again for IVF #1, there's one line that especially jumps out at me: "You get me to rise like a fish to the bait, then tell me to wait.  Well, I'm waiting, waiting for life to begin."

So what specifically am I waiting for at this point?  Well, it's been 2 weeks since the lab got DH's genetic sample, so we should be hearing in the next week whether he's a carrier for SMA like I am or not.  It doesn't really matter at this point if he's a carrier for anything else, since I'm not.  I'm also waiting for our RE appointment on the 16th when we hopefully make plans for the cycle starting in January.  I found out today that I might need to wait till January 15 to be able to access the money for DH's FSA, but that's ok because we wouldn't max out my deductible and need to use that money until after the 15th anyway.

On a more macro level (man, I do sound like a social worker!!), I'm waiting to use the box of meds that, come to think of it, I still need to bring in from outside.  (Since they usually live on my dining table, I had to move them out of the way for Thanksgiving.)  I'm still scared to death of needles, but I just want to get IVF #1 moving!  I'm antsy enough about that that I even want the needles, just to be doing something besides waiting for life to begin.


  1. I assume you mean waiting for your life to begin but what a fitting title & a better theme than the word infertility. As I've said before, it can be self-perpetuating. You're waiting for his/her life to begin.... :) I so love you, my darling, support you in this, & my whole heart & will is focused on this for you - as are my prayers & healings.

  2. Anonymous5:53 AM

    I was also terrified to needles and still are very uncomfortable taking my blood. But somehow I managed to go through two rounds of ivf and numerous blood tests. Well,it helped that my husband did the injections - couldn't done it without him. You'll get through, it's amazing what we can cope with to get to our dreams.Keep the eye on the prize!