Some parts of this song make me wonder if it will fit even better if I have a miscarriage, especially the parts about being given paradise for only a day and about wishing in the darkest days never to have learned what it is to be in love and have that love returned. I thought about waiting and posting this song only if I had a miscarriage and felt like it fit then. But then I decided to post it not instead because I didn't want to tempt Fate by having it in the back of my mind. Silly, I know. But a lot of us do things to try to sway Fate in one way or another, from fertility socks to saying a specific prayer to creating a fertility ritual. And I'm trying to not accidentally jinx myself.
One woman doing her part to break the silence that surrounds infertility.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Music Monday #17 - Written in the Stars
This song grabbed me from the first time I heard it. I really love the emotion that comes through in the song. It struck me in a new light, though, thinking about infertility. I think all of us have asked the question of why me, why my partner, why us. I know I sure have. Whether we believe in God, the Fates, destiny, some combination thereof, it's a question that often comes to my mind. I've basically (most of the time) gotten past the question of whether we're being punished for something with infertility, but I still wonder about the role of destiny, God's plan, whatever.
Some parts of this song make me wonder if it will fit even better if I have a miscarriage, especially the parts about being given paradise for only a day and about wishing in the darkest days never to have learned what it is to be in love and have that love returned. I thought about waiting and posting this song only if I had a miscarriage and felt like it fit then. But then I decided to post it not instead because I didn't want to tempt Fate by having it in the back of my mind. Silly, I know. But a lot of us do things to try to sway Fate in one way or another, from fertility socks to saying a specific prayer to creating a fertility ritual. And I'm trying to not accidentally jinx myself.
Some parts of this song make me wonder if it will fit even better if I have a miscarriage, especially the parts about being given paradise for only a day and about wishing in the darkest days never to have learned what it is to be in love and have that love returned. I thought about waiting and posting this song only if I had a miscarriage and felt like it fit then. But then I decided to post it not instead because I didn't want to tempt Fate by having it in the back of my mind. Silly, I know. But a lot of us do things to try to sway Fate in one way or another, from fertility socks to saying a specific prayer to creating a fertility ritual. And I'm trying to not accidentally jinx myself.
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I had not heard of the song before.
ReplyDeleteWhether Fate does play a role...are their hidden meanings, and can we change outcomes?
Who knows.
Good Luck with your IVF w/PGD ...
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I listen to too much of the Broadway channel on my satellite radio. :-)
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