I've been calling my one friend's toddler my birthday buddy or birthday twin since she was born on my birthday 2 years ago. Today, I got a new birthday buddy. I was excited to see that she came and that she came on my birthday. I was happy, and not upset, and I appreciate that. When I told DH about my new birthday buddy, he asked how I was doing, and I was honestly able to tell him that I was doing fine. I didn't know how long it would last, but I was sure going to enjoy being fine while it did last.
I'm not just fine anymore, but I'm not upset or angry or completely depressed either. I'm still happy and excited for my friend, but pictures have started making their way onto Facebook and it's hard for me to see the pictures. I'm not trying to say that people shouldn't post them or anything like that. But it's still hard.
So now I have a mix of excited and difficulty rather than unadulterated excitement.